Im going prompt-less

12 Dec

You know what?! These prompt malarky from reverb10 ain’t really me. For starter they are a bit deep and meaningful and I’m pretty shallow! I hate reflecting I have come to realise because I like to get on with whatever it is I’m doing now. Also because I am pregnant the divider between 2010 and 2011 isn’t really registering this year – December marks half way through carrying this baby so it really feels like a continuation rather than new start or a time to reflect.

This is an interesting realisation which I will post on soon I think.

December 6 – Make

6 Dec

December 6 – Make. What was the last thing you made? What materials did you use? Is there something you want to make, but you need to clear some time for it? (Author: Gretchen Rubin)

ahhh what a great question.

im a great maker (as in i make alot of stuff – not that i make it greatly!) of craft and baking.

the last thing i made was some gorgeous lemon cupcakes, but with my off-whack pregnancy taste buds they tasted like cheese to me!!!! everyone else said they tasted good though lol

i have a half started cardigan for baba that i need to finish and christmas cards that need making pretty darn soon.

this is a healthy eating /weight loss blog btw LOL i think that aspect my be on hiatus til baba’s born!

December 5 – Let Go

5 Dec

December 5 – Let Go.

What (or whom) did you let go of this year? Why? (Author: Alice Bradley)

so i have to say i am pretty brutal when it comes to friends – they gotta add something for me to value their friendship. so friends who judge, make snide comments or bitch about others all the time ( cuz what are they saying about me then?) went a long time ago. i can honestly say those who are left can stay… for now lol

so i didnt give up any people this year but i did gave up the misapprehension that i could have it all at the same time. im not saying that i cant have it all. i am pretty darned sure i can in fact achieve everything i  set my mind to – i can have a real good career, i can be a mama and i can walk marathons (oh yh i can!) but maybe not all at the exact same time? i realised that i definitely needed to prioritise. my reasoning went thusly

  1. my retirement date on my pension is set to 2047 (yes really) so i have pllllenty of time to build my career up
  2. i currently have a great job in a fantastic company with fantastic benefits
  3. i can do my job. easily. it would be perfect to run alongside a young family could i do that 2 pay grades up?
  4. i have maybe 10 years baby making time in me (15 tops) and i would like to have a kid most of all.
  5. it can take ages to have a baba – i dont want to leave it too late.
  6. theres a moonwalk every year sure im guna miss one but i can do every single one after that if i want.

what was stopping me? well expectation i guess – women of my generation just dont have kids in our 20s, we wait until we push up the company food chain and get a job good enough so we can pay for IVF. meh. i know too many who have heartache because they left it too late.

so we did it the easy way. the cheap(er) way. we got pregnant in one shot and  i pray everyday that in May we will have a healthy bouncing  (why bouncing??!!) baby girl or boy.

so this year i let go of expectations and did what my body did naturally – i can take on the world after.

December 4 – Wonder

4 Dec

December 4 – Wonder.

How did you cultivate a sense of wonder in your life this year? (Author: Jeffrey Davis)

hmmm…. wonder? i really only associate the word wonder as a word that i hear in church, its a word that comes up again and again in hymns about the wonder of God. meh. its a hard one – how do i cultivate it in my life? i dont no i honestly dont. maybe i need to do a bit more wondering about this question…

sorry LOL x

December 3 – Moment

3 Dec

December 3 – Moment. Pick one moment during which you felt most alive this year. Describe it in vivid detail (texture, smells, voices, noises, colors). (Author: Ali Edwards)

omigoodness 🙂 how do you choose just one moment?! its been a fantastic year with tons of monumental moments. so to just pick one is kinda hard. so i’d like to say that this one isnt *better* its just the most ingrained i guess.

so as you might know i did two powerwalking marathons this year, the first i did on my own and the second i did with my OH. The first i finished in 6:35 but i had no intention of trying to make the second match the first as the second was in edingbourgh and was far far hillier than the one in London.

my momemnt was this – coming up to the finish i realised that we were onlyabout 3 minutes off my London time. i remember looking at my watch and seeing the number there. all around me there was other walkers who were looking completley pooped and there were alot of supporters either side of the path. i looked at OH and said – ‘we are going to bomb this last bit’ unzipped my waterproof to show off my bra (the sign of the moonwalk – dont worry i hadnt gone bonkers!!) and we started pumping it. i remember pumping it past alot of other ladies who were looking at us as if we were off our rockers – but we were on a mission. I had my head down and i was going, but i could see flashes out of my periphiral vision of supporters really cheering us on.

we crossed the line at 6:35:32 – and having that medal put round my neck was amazing

as was a sit down a bit later LOL x

December 2 – Productivity

2 Dec

December 2 – Writing. What do you do each day that doesn’t contribute to your writing — and can you eliminate it? (Author: Leo Babauta)

this reminds me of the franklin covey question – what one thing could i do or eliminate that would have the biggest effect on my productivity?

and mine, boringly, is always always – wake up earlier

i find it so hard to get out of bed in the morning and can lay in for hours and hours. obviously being with child i have been even more tired and so this has become even harder. over the years i have tried many a thing to get me out of bed – i evem have one of those daylight alarm clocks which simulates dawn(!).  i think the ultimate cure may well be a crying baby at 6am 🙂

december 1

1 Dec

December 1 One Word.
Encapsulate the year 2010 in one word. Explain why you’re choosing that word. Now, imagine it’s one year from today, what would you like the word to be that captures 2011 for you?
(Author: Gwen Bell)

so day one and its a toughy

1 word fo 2010 – personal in 2010 i did thing that were important to me – i powerwalked 2 marathons after training very hard for them, i lost weight, i slept in – i did the things that made me happy. i also won the personal battle (as franklin covey would say) and sewed the seeds for the year to come

1 word for 2011- i hope will be family i am having baba in may and i know that will change me and everyone close – everyone says the biggest deal is having number 1, eveything will change and i need to put other people first.

c u tomoro 🙂